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Hi im laura, im 15 and Im a rather controlled & disaplinned person, and i am obsessed with anorexia. So.. let me tell you about my life. When i started year 9, i started to stop eating at school as i had changed my apperance rappidally, i started straightening my hair and i wore alot of make-up and i started getting boy attention. One day my mum told me "look at the state of you".. i had lost alot of weight without realising it, because of corse then i wasnt really taking any notice of my weight, i spent most of my time on msn and bebo and at that time.. i wasnt eating much at home either apart from a little bit of dinner and maybe afew snacks, and tbh i didnt think i had a problem atall.. afew months past and it was nearly the middle through year 9, and most of my friends started getting concerd asking me if i was okay, and if i had an eating disorder, but of corse i said i didnt.. because i was soo fucked up then i didnt know what was going on with me. When i started year 10 i then realised that i was loosing weight, and i wanted to get thinner & thnnner, i started looking at pro-ana & pro-mia sites and started looking up stuff on youtube & google to do with anorexia and eating disorders, i started starving myself on and off, and then i began to self harm, i was in such a state. And up til now.. i am still happy for all my progress, But i have gained weight recently.. not much, but i can tell in my stomach, face & arms.. i feel sooo depressed and that i am so weak, a failure and im discusting!! i hate myself, WHY CANT I JUST BE THIN!!! remember. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels, NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS! id rather be dead than fat!! :@:( x

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